Life is like an ABC. You are learning the lesson of life starting from A and continuing with the next B. You falling down, stumbled upon the obstacles and you learn the lesson of life from it. 

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~I’m so not good with numbers. [I mean, once upon a time, yes maybe nevertheless what happen mathematics always be my favourite subject but not until my life has turn upside down like roller coaster when I have been throwing into some strange planet and been displaying with all the classical books of previous scholars not to mention fall deeply in love with it]

 which mean that I’m not so fond of economic stuff -  but (dear me), am I doing my research something related with economic or what? Maybe you have to learn to do the ‘ Sudoku’ things, maybe Biiznihi Taa’la with that effort you can force yourself to continue writing something that your heart are not into it. Dear me, at least it is still in the feild that you love and attach so much- Usul Al-Feqh-. Alhamdulillah.

 

 

~Just passed the weeks of  helping umi with our little humaira’ on her toilet training . Now she is independence little child, if we could say so ( I mean she is not so little, almost 2 years and half now ). Duh, thanks ummi, for teaching us how to do it. Don’t wear them a diapers and told them very clearly and patiently. " Dear, you have to go to the toilet, ok "If you want to toilet training your child, sisters, brothers or nephews you have to be extremely patience and bear to clean it every times they did’t make it to the toilet. But the reward was so exciting and satisfying when our little one did’t want to do it with the diapers even tough we asked them to do it because they have understood the command and want to make it in the toilet. The funny thing with our little one is, she will keep crying so hard when we ask her " sayang, please why are you crying when you have diapers with you." When she hear this she will continue crying and when we are laughing while looking at her she will crying more hardly. It was like she told us. "Don’t force me, I have learn my lesson now, i have to go to the toilet. Don’t make me feel guilty anymore ( by not successfully making it through the toilet)."

My dearest humaira, you are a big girl now and I’m so proud of you. ( this is for you to read it when you are big enough to know how to read :). A big compliment right?

~ A very hard month for us  when  load of our sahabah have went to their island, land, hometown and country PLUS getting married! It is really hard for not being able to see each other anymore. It is fell like there is a very big hole deep down our heart, knot in the stomach, lump in the throat when they are not here. But our promise is to meet in heaven and surely our spiritual linkage is more than enough. Alhamdulillah. Baqa’. AlBazrah you know how it feel.Hemm..Allahu, Allahu
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~Got this tiny or maybe a huge pang of jealousy to my mate since small ( he; who will force us to play cardboard football with him, as he will fold the cardboard into two and make it as symbol of a player together with a small ball made from paper or asked us to learn how to kick a ball with him- what on earth?- but we will peacefully and happily play together with all the kid fighting as he also didn’t mind to play with us either it is ‘ getah’, cooking in the woods or others games. As we have the law of give and take.)  who got the memorable chances to meet with the Ulama’ ‘Amilin and Mashayeikh kabir in Syiria. I mean is there any other thing in this world that are spiritually satisfying and will be count as a good deed by Allah inshAllah rather than when we  meet with those who are very close to Allah? Amilin? As for me, there is no others. As has been mentioned in Al-Bayan by Imam Nawawi that by looking to the faces of Ulama’- ‘Amilin will grant you barakah - inshAllah. The chances to meet them is what I consider as the most pleasure moments in my life. What is more greater than to look at the faces that will deepen your fear and love towards Allah? What is more entertaining than to hear the voices that will uplift your soul towards the remembrance of Allah? Appereantltly, in what i consider as a limited situation I still feel so grateful to Allah in what HE has given to me and my sahabah  even though we just can look at them form far away. Sometimes it is heartbreaking when we can’t go near them as other students can go but what is more important is to practice the lesson- do ‘amal- and get close to Allah with it. The quantity of the knowledge is important but what is more vital is to practice it. Alhamdulillah for all the ni’mah. Pakcik aka uncle; way to go! - My one bloodmate since small.

~ Early birds gonna get the biggest worms ( am I have created a new phrase? )